Why can't things be clear, yes or no, black or white, on or off? Instead, things linger, drag on, falter, lurch to life, stutter step, misconnect, fade in and out. Situations feel frozen in place, then get slippery.
I used to be so decisive. Now I question myself and hesitate. I stand in my hallway and literally take a step forward, back and end in a muddle. I've lost my way.
Dylan nailed it: I was so much older then; I'm younger than that now.
I'm in a fog these days as well. My memory is shot and even recent events are hazy. Experts offer the easy excuse of hormonal changes, but that seems like a cop-out. You could use that rationale from age 13 to 63. Nothing has changed, but it all feels like it's slipping out of my grasp.
I don't even know the point of this post. If you do, let me know. Or come over, give me a slap and a shake and clear my head.
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